over the last week, i found myself in the middle of a conversation that was more like a “confrontation” than just me talking with someone. i won’t bother getting into the actual subject matter of the “confron-versation”, but i do want to say that it didn’t catch me by surprise; i’d actually spent a significant portion of time reflecting on just what i’d say IF such a confrontation ever broke out. with this person. on this topic. (there you have a great picture of the inner-workings of my brain. joy.)
the point is, though the discussion went a lot like i’d imagined it would, it wasn’t too painful; i said everything that i wanted to, (civilly, even,) thereby avoiding the post-confrontation regrets. much of the apprehension & anxiety i’d felt leading up to it was unnecessary. sitting around thinking & analyzing after the talk (another “scoey-d brain at work” moment,) i realize that i have wasted a lot of time in my life on anxiety. i don’t even want to think about all the other times where i’ve been anxious, & for nothing.
“be anxious in nothing, but in everything, with prayer & supplication makes your requests known to God. and the peace of God which surpasses understanding will guard your hearts & minds in Christ Jesus…” (from the best as i can remember it version)
work this in me God –