16 December 2009 5 Comments

there’s something in my eye…

I’ve been crying a lot. A LOT. Almost at the proverbial “drop of a hat.” Watching my iDoey & Reed High School’s presentation of “White Christmas.” Drinking coffee & thinking of friends. Eating breakfast. (It was a really good egg & sausage burrito.) Playing with my niece Ellie G.

Not sure why this is happening, though I think that I’ve traced the beginning to being in Germany a couple weeks back… I remember feeling overwhelmed & overcome with thankfulness, sitting around the dinner table with Shawn, Matt, & a couple of Russian/Kazakh pastors, wrestling through a couple layers of a language barrier, sharing good food & drink, lots of laughs, & the commonality of relationship with Christ. This commonality makes the most daunting cultural, language, social barrier seem like a mere crack in the floor compared to knowing & being known by Jesus Christ, Lord & Savior. It causes the most cynical part of me, the part scarred & marred by religion, religious-ness, & religiousity to be able to truly speak the words “brother” & “sister…” to the people at my table. And mean it. These words, too seemingly steeped in christian-ese to be able to be spoken except in sarcastic jest, rolled off of my lips as I embraced & was embraced by these precious men & women.

I remember being struck at how truly blessed I am. With theBean. My Pasty. iDoey. theWeez. My family. Friends – real friends.. God’s faithful provision. A church family. A job. Countless resources.

Now it seems I am seeing beauty in things & people that before I may not even have taken notice of a month ago. And its everywhere. And it is TRULY a wonderful life.


Ellie came into my office & saw me crying today – she’s 2, an age where crying only means sad. She ran out into the main office area declaring, “Tay-tay’s CRYing! Tay-tay’s CRYing!” Her mom said, “Ellie! Tay-tay needs a hug!” The precious little one came running back in & lifted up her arms: “Tay-tay! Up!”

I swooped her into my arms & she squeezed me around the neck for what seemed like an hour. Then, she patted me on the back gently, & lovingly said, “It’s ok Tay-tay.” She grabbed my face, looked into my eyes, & yelled, “Tay-tay! DOWN!”

5 Responses to “there’s something in my eye…”

  1. brent 16 December 2009 at 17:40 #

    perhaps you will be crying after sunday, no? no back-to-back titles can really get the waterworks flowing for some guys

  2. Noel 16 December 2009 at 22:07 #

    Melt my heart. Nothing like a hug from a Lil person to make you gush even more. Crying is so good. I remember having to explain to my kids about happy crying versus sad. I happy cry all the time Lou, you are in good company. It is a Wonderful Life!!

  3. Jeni 19 December 2009 at 08:43 #

    I can completely relate to the happy/thankful crying at unexpected things… But I am amused at the thought of you staring tearfully at your breakfast burrito…

  4. Laura 19 December 2009 at 19:23 #

    Wow, I didn’t even notice the tears over the breakfast burrito… My mind must have been elsewhere:) Darn good burritos though.

    • scoeyd 20 December 2009 at 08:07 #

      Yes its true. But it was a GREAT burrito.



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