scoey's conundrum

“You didn’t let ME run, Dad.” TheWeez’s comment took me by surprise. I had no context. “What do you mean Weez?” “You sat up on the stage today after church, & there were like 100 little kids running crazy all over the church, & you just sat there smiling. And then later on, you pointed [...]

Oh LORD. Have mercy. Fire is one of my favorite things – candles, camp fires, a back yard fire pit. Fire. In moderation, under control, providing ambiance, warmth, cheer… Sigh. I’m sitting at my desk looking out my window at the smoke filled sky… yet another wind-blown rager has descended upon the Reno area, consuming [...]

I’ve been thinking a lot about things that I want to be true of me. Characteristics. Attitudes. Traits. Things that could be good & accurate descriptors to help paint a picture of the man that I am & the man that I am continually becoming. A few that have come up. Gracious. Compassionate. Thoughtful. Faithful. [...]

I’m up late again. Or really, really early, depending on how you look at it. Either way, bed is something that I find myself anticipating falling into. When I’m sleepy. Now, not so much. Its not insomnia, its that my brain is in the “on” position; perhaps it got stuck there because I’ve been in [...]

This year, I’ve probably read through the Book of Acts at least 10 times for “me,” & another 10 times for a chapter-by-chapter blog series. Now, I’m going through it again, this time in ‘study mode’ for the ‘story by story’ series at Hillside. So, this morning I was reviewing my notes for tomorrow’s speech [...]

I’ve been down in a hole. Emotional. A little depressed. Weary. Grumpy. Frustrated. Grieving. It all came to a head last week as I realized what was happening, & forced myself to take a look at what I was dealing with rather than avoid &/or run & hide. Change. Pasty Gangster is 99.9% moving to [...]

Day 2 – Columbus This has been a very rich experience for me – every meeting, every interaction has been full of significance & meaning. As I’ve looked back on the day to try to “sum up,” I find that my words are inadequate to do justice to describe it & will probably leave . [...]

My Pasty Gangster will not be home for Christmas this year. It will be the 1st Christmas in 19 years without him… as he is headed to Cookeville, Tennessee to spend the holidays (& then some,) with his girl Alex & her family. For me, it isn’t hard to deal with him being gone; it’s [...]

Day 11 – After a great evening of being wined & dined by the Kern family, I slept great. Woke up to coffee & a small German breakfast with lightly sweet bread & homemade quitten geili mit amaretto (aka: quince berry jelly, with amaretto.) Oh so tasty. I ate waaaaay more than I normally would [...]

Oops. I did it again. Over-scheduled my life, with the best of intentions, & a complete disregard for the fact that: a) I’m human; b) I’m married & have three kids, each with their own complex layered schedules; c) Just because something is fun doesn’t mean it doesn’t take a toll on you d) sitting [...]